How do you spell car ?

Apparently it is now KA.

Yes, the ford ka. I am seriously thinking of getting one soon. The provisional license is coming in and I will be shopping for cars soon. Of course it will be a second hand, but the boon of the KA is that its predominantly females who buy em. Which means the brakes are less worn, they are less likely to have been in an accident etc.

This kind of sucks, because I always thought i'd get my dad to teach me to drive. And my family would be celebrating when I got my license. Actually, the same can be said about my first job in canada, and my 21st birthday. I think I forgot what I did for my 21st. Oh yeah, I got paid and drank absinthe. And by being so far away, when something goes wrong here or back home, there is no way I can reassure them.

A lot of things have been missing from my life, but you know, its all an exchange. Versus being in safe ol singapore, I get to see the world and probably am a lot better at doing a lot of obscure grown-up things. Had a lot of unbridled fun, washed up whenever I wanted to wash up, bought any number of silly nice things and travelled where ever I wanted to go. Being an adult is FUN. Haha.

The realisation that washing up is supposed to be done whenever you want it to be done is a superb high that you will always try to chase. Its almost as good as your first time walking into the supermarket and buying whatever you want for dinner.

Which doesn't count for much but thats my consolation. I am homesick for family, I am homesick for friends. At 22, I have no social life because NO ONE is around. Not anyone's fault, but it feels shit sometimes. The job is tough, I continually doubt whether anyone outside my family cares about me, and there is no bloody maggi mee in this country.

I also just realised I am not even going to be 22 very soon. I am turning 23 this year in MAY. I am getting too old.

23.

Twenty Three.