Timing.....

Today was all about time for me. The trains were backed up this morning on the way to london, so I ended up 2 hours late, which is a shame because I was planning on meeting up with c&g for lunch and it totally screwed my plans.

Original Plan
1030 - Arrival , lovely slow breakfast , train to angel station
1130 - Interview with WL , train to monument
1300 - Meet with c&g

And then possibly spend the afternoon lunching with g

INSTEAD, I arrived at 1230, spent most of my time rearranging the interview and staring at dismay at the only available timeslot. Then I spend half an hour rotting in the back of a black cab to and from.

FEH.

Also, more on timing. D got admitted to A&E today because his left lung collapsed. On Friday, we decided to call the whole engagement thing off, but his chest pains started soon after. So, I know its selfish of me, but I did feel slightly betrayed and it didn't seem that serious over the weekend, so he didn't get much in the way of sympathy. Not as much as he would have in 'normal' circumstances anyway.

Monday passes with him in bed, snappy .. and today he went for a xray and was checked into the hospital this morning while I am away in London, lo and behold, to reinflate his lungs. Apparently its a painful procedure, and it doesn't help that he has been smoking for a decade.

I don't know how to feel about him and me right now. I'd like to be more mature and be truly concerned, I would have followed him to the doctors if I could, but I think my emotions are too clouded now to be of much use.

And I don't like the smell of tobacco.